Last Day of November

Well, Today is the last day of November with 10 mins left.
This month I just want to say I am thankful.
My Thanksgiving I didnt spend with my family.
I did however spend it with Ta-kitty.
God made it all possible.
We didn't have anyone else  but we had each other.
And Black friday this was the 1st time i actually worked on that day.
But other than Than Spending our anniversary together I promise to make up
for what has happened this year.
I pray for Guidance because I am only Human.
I make mistakes, everyone does.
Even after I still own up to it you know and I feel relieved.
Thank you lord for creating me and thank you for allowing to have a girlfriend who actually cares about me.
who wont leave or call me a piece of crap. Some one who will actually return my feelings.
I Love Ta- Kitty :)
And this wasnt all possible if it werent for you Lord.
Thank you

3 questions

What does it take for a person to care about someone other than themselves?
Living Life freely without pain or suffering/ Is it just a dream?
People treating others with respect. Is it a crime to change?

What is going thru my head pt 8

At times I feel like i have lost a part of me.
Music, games,and card games, what does it mean?
These things  I used to do. Where did it go?
I can only answer that myself, no one knows.
When it comes music, there's hip-hop and rock.
Think of trek, I wish i were Spock.
Reading helps me think of new things to write.
I would talk to a person instead of wanting a fight.
I am Jynex, I am not the best or better than rest.
Always wondering on what to do next.
Living Life one day at a time.
People look at me strange. Why?
What's the problem.
Am I am snob ? No

I'm better off leaving that for the people that are stuck up.
For them I would tell them to Shut the Hell up.
You are a human being.
No one is perfect what are you seeing.
I see that the person that can help others.
Like a son giving food to his mother.
Here is where i finish this.
Striving for a better tomorrow, instead of being selfish. 

Rose

Roses are red, yet they have so many thorns.
Scraping my shirt that I have previously worn.
Should I leave it where it is or should i look else where.
When the rose pricks you, it doesn't care.
It doesn't have  eyes so it can't see.
It doesn't have a mouth so it cant speak.
A rose is valued more when its admired from afar.
When touched, it leaves a scar.

What theHell? An everyday Scenario

How I feel right now is hard to describe.
I feel i just got stabbed with a knife.
Just because I wasn't able to do what i said i was going to do.
You get mad at me and tell me off.
What the Hell?
What gives you the right to be mad at someone.
Getting mad at something that doesn't go your way.
Taking it out on the wrong person.
Someone that is there for you.
As I recall I never said no.
But if you actual listen not everything is suppose the way you wanted to go.
No one has their way in this world.
If you are miserable, so is the next person.
The next choice is up to you. Think carefully.
Think on how are you going to solve the problem.
It will come to you in due time.
But for now, just take a deep breath and cool down.

My thoughts on 2010....

It has been tough year for me and i am grateful that i was able to get through it.
Looking back on this year it has been more negative and it seem like all hope was lost.
Dealing with my own personal issues like my family, not being able to fine work, and my relationship.
Thought swirl in mind questioning my own existence and why I did certain things back then.
I am very sorry for everything I have done not just this year but everything in general.
Had some trying time dealing with my past and i can it wasnt easy at all. I been reflecting
on the decision I have had made 2yrs back in 2008. But i can safely now I can put that rest now.
For the lord has blessed me with a new job. I am very thankful for that.
I want to apologize for all of the struggle that has happened.
Tara's Birthday and My Birthday I want to make up for what has happened Lord willing.
I have come back to Arsenio's house. Joe's lil bro Zach thinks I am Good teacher.
Reading that letter almost made me cry.
I dont know whats going on with my brothers. I do think about that and what they are doing.
I know Tyler wonders if i will ever come back ?
For now I just have to have faith in the Lord.

A poem, Man i need to write more :)

I feel like I'm Good person, yet I'm treated like crap.
Endless taunts and gestures make you want to snap.
Act quickly Defend yourself from the attack.
Attack back with actual facts.
Do these people know me ?  No
DO they control where I go?
What gives them the right to say that you 're useless.
I am doing what I  can, stop making excuses.
Going to school, Going to work.
Its good to have options first.
Leave all distractions at home.
They are like the wind, they come and go.
Keep going and dont listen to the negative.
That is why there is the positive
To keep your spirits up when hope seems to fade.
The devil has lost this is not his day.
Give God thanks for the blessing he has bestowed upon you.
That is why He loves to see something good.
For the people that read this.
People sometime lose direction and they miss.

But when you have faith, you can go forward.

How we met pt 2

As I was telling her my version of the game.
Some of our interest were in fact the same.
She did laugh and so did I.
I felt like i was in sky.
I felt i could talk to her about anything.
Anything that was personal, I could tell her and she listen.
She understood and told me I was good person.
That made me understand why I wont leave her side.
There is no one like her i could have met at that time.
I dreamed of where she lived  A nice house maybe ?
Who knows
But I would to go there one day.
There is a time a place for everything.
On April 3rd there was no going back for me.
I made a choice and I believe
When Hugged her in the Hall of the CCB.
I told her " I wish time could stop so we could like this forever"
I admitted my feelings for her and Love her dearly.
Spending time on the 11 floor,
or
Light saber dueling in the store.
Spending  a birthday blasting the hell out machines.
Or Being James and Amy Killing zombies.
We had fun and we still do
These memories are but some that i have revealed.
Until next time this Love story will continue.

How we met pt 1

That day when I first met you
I thought who is she and what is her name.
Does she like music or video games.
Who knows i feel this warm feeling in my heart.
I want to know her and i will go so far.
To know her name is Tara, my mouth begins to smile.
To be this close and comfortable, its been a while.
She smiles and begins to makes jokes.
I feel ticklish when she starts to poke.
Playing some Pokemon with a friend.
She acts a cheerleader and roots for him.
Looking as they day goes by he didn't want her to leave.
Hopefully, he could catch her same time next week.
As next week came, He waited for her.
As time went by, He looked around and wonder?
Will I ever see her again ? will that be the only time?
I looked for her a month, the sun didn't shine.
Until one march afternoon  I wander into the cafe.
I look around and see her with taco bell on her tray.
Happy as I felt on the inside.
When she went for the bus, I ran outside.
I ask her phone number, hoping I can speak to her again.
That night i wasted no time in leaving her a message.
She surprise me and she called back.
That night was a night I wont forget.
Talking about gay Gary is following you in around.
Wha's next I will continue with the next part of this lovely story.
But for right now, I have to hurry and Tell her how much I love her.